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Yeah so, I was playing with my dogs and I fell asleep in my bed for about 5 minutes, then my dumb brother had to come in and wake me up to order pizza because he's lazy and he doesn't know how. What an idiot.
I've been thinking lately. It's really hard to believe that I'm going to be 16 in a matter of months. It seems like just yesterday I was 7 years old playing with Barbie and Ken and wanting little tea sets to have tea time with all of my friends and stuffed animals. WOW! Time really flies by. When i turn 16 I will have new freedoms, i'll be able to drive, i can go out on car dates with boys *like this would ever happen anyways*, and many other things that somewhat frighten me. Major plus though, big double party for me and a miss McKenna Elise whom i love so dearly.
It's funny how looking back you laugh at how immature you were. you laugh at how you thought that boys had cooties and now you're always trying to impress one or trying to make one happy. you make yourself sick over how evil and manipulative you were, how you lied and cheated to get everything you wanted, how you snuck around and threw tantrums just to get attention because you were jealous that you weren't the baby anymore.
I make myself sick looking at how stupid I was in fifth grade. I lied and snuck around, cheated and thre tantrums, hid things, I was the all out devil child. I was hell on Earth. Now look at me. I'm the total opposite. I don't lie, cheat, steal, sneak. Music and God were my salvation. I put all of my faith in him and he's helped me get to where I am today. Without god I don't know where I would be, I only have an idea. I'd probably be one of those drug addicted kids that fights and fails school. I'd probably be horrible.
I love how my friends care for me, they mean a lot to me.
I don't like, however, how shallow people are and how they treat others. Today for example, Mia asked a questin in Algebra because she didn't understand, so Cole skinner has to make a comment and it made Mia cry. Mia went out in the hall with Mrs. Stratton, talked with her, and Mrs. Stratton came in and was so angry. It was amazing, I was scared. Then there's the comments about how "Fat and Ugly" people are. Guess what people, WHO CARES! If you don't like me for me, you're not worth my time. If you don't have enough courage to say something to someones face, don't say anything at all. If you don't like something that someone is doing, then don't sit there and make fun of them. The world has become a place of agony and tears, pain and suffering because of the acts of others. I find this repulsive and I will do my part to change it. Starting today.
end of my rant, dinner is here. Later kids.
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